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I just wish someone can understand me.
If people can move out of houses
I wish for now i could move out of my life
call it escapism
i wanna go to faraway lands and talk to queer people.
people who stare at me and think i'm strange
at least than i know and they know that they do not understand me
at least than they would be forgiven for misjudging me
at least than i know i'm lost
at least than i know that they know that i'm lost
now i just have to live a life
a life that i have chosen for myself
a life that i have to suffer the consequences of
cause for everything that i chose i knew the consequences full well
i knew what will happen and yet i chose it.
a bet against a bet.
am i dumb?
don't answer me.
i choose to believe that any human in my position would do the same.