Whats this feeling?

Eversince i dunnoe when
i cannot quite put a time or date to it
i have been feeling this sense of odd restlessnesss
the sought you feel when you are unsatisfied
when you feel you need a greater stimulation of some sought that you can't quite put a name to
a deep dissatisfaction but you dunnoe what will feel it
why do some people have so many more friends to hang out with?
like friends to study with to go through life with?
why does it feel like friends are so difficult to make?
i long for some sort of careless abandonment
something which i now busk in
but the knowledge that school looms in the background
and that my days are numbered
argh such resposibilities
why so?
open conversations
deep mysteries
new paths to cross.
thats the life i want
the life in constant search of adventure
of challenge
of difficulties
of fulfillment.
question marks my sentences.