thoughts

you know once during a period when i was very sad
instead of kind words
i got harsh words it was than that my sadness turned to anger
fierce and bitter and helpless anger
and than i took control of my anger
and i took control of my life once again
i can't remember who that person was
i know you may not have meant your strong words
but they were indeed timely.
thanks. i vaguely remember the words but don't remember the person. haha.

sometimes a person needs a jolt to return to reality
sometimes i need a shock to get some sense into me
and today i did get one from a movie.
it shocked me and traumatized me.
how can people have sex so freely.
and treat it like nothing?
my mind cannot comprehend.
does your conscience bother you?
how do you feel about yourdelf?
wat does love mean to you than?
what are you going to teach your kids?
what about your family members, how do they feel?
aren't you worried about diseases?
when you wake up how do you feel?

pleasure to me
is a good meal with people i love
time spent with ebeegirls and other old good friends cousins
sitting on the couch with JD watching travel and living
sitting on the train with JD watching the scenery
just discovering new sights

the worse thing that can happen to me is probably waking up and feeling purposeless
that would take the meaning out of life.