an early dismiss

leaving the world can be so sudden.
i wonder how it feels like to to unconsious.
will you still know whats going on around you?
will you still know who says what to you?

***

boyfriend offered me a free ticket from hong kong to canada and lodging for canada but dad disallowed.
too tired to fight with him. (not that he will change his mind)
sigh. sigh. sigh.
no engergy at all.
so well
do ask me out first week of dec.