you know,
after my inspiring talk with mr potato on sat afternoon,
and joanne in the evening.
or more like me whining and complaining about various stuff
i feel much better.
thanks lt and cor for the messages too.

and today,
i was thinking about the line career is career.
how many of us actually know what you want to do at the age of 18/21(f/m)
or even if you know what you want to do
would you still want to do it after you start doing it?
i myself have been thinking about this for a long while.
like why i spend hours filling holes in teeth waxing up crowns/dentures/bridges, extracting teeth, scraping calculus off teeth...
and i realise suddenly that i actually like what i do.
its actually pretty fun and i actually want to learn more about whatever i am doing.
ok this is the first time in a long while (make it 3 years) that i actually fill inspired about anything.
and i guess its a start.
so i'm pretty glad i'm in this course (of course my God's grace)

like how pastor always says when things are at its worst thats when things start getting better.
God will never make us suffer beyond what we can bear.

so for those of you who feel caught in a rut take cheer that you're not alone.
and if you believe this same God will make things better for you.
all you need is to believe.

i can't wait for school to end
this term has been so disorganised
i have been so uninterested in school
i don't believe......
school can just be so difficult.

i'm going for exchange for a week.
but will be in sydney for two weeks.
anyone who wants to meet up with me there pls let me know.
just can't wait to get out of here.
things are really too much.

I am glad i'm alive and functiion.
whenever something bad happens something better is gonna happen.
thank God for His Hand of protection on me.
thank God no one got hurt.

i crashed into the road divider.
the front wheel burst and broke away from the car.
i dunnoe how it happened.
i still can't really believe it happen.
but the bang sound keeps playing in my head.
and the imagined taste of blood in my mouth
with my head banged against the steering wheel keeps playing in my head.
the car spun.
and i could feel myself being flung out of my seat.
some how there's a scratch on my hand.
its was so scary.
i was so shocked.
and than i looked around for my phone and called bf.
Thank God for him.
Sorry i crashed your car.
feel really bad about it.

Called mum and she came down.
she cancelled her plans for the day.
and brought us from one kaki bukit to kembangan to siglap to marine parade to kaki bukit to parkway to home to great world.
was quite touched

dad was also so sweet to me
he didn't scold me
and he offered to pay for the damages.

what a day.