show off

die with the past.
thankyou very much.
strangers.
we do not know each other anymore.
face in the crowd.

twiddles

a noisy kid an afternoon digging worms that refuse to budge
a sqirming kid a lickety lick lick tongue
machine gun
feel really ridiculous treating kids
chasing the daddy worm
looking for the mummy worm
killing the eggs
oh my
give me a new story
so much noise
a wake
uncomfortable
dunnoe where to look
new birks that schocked me
running around
but some friendly people make me smile
two
i'm so stressed
seriously.

sometimes i feel like giving up
more often than not
sometimes i feel like i cannot take it anymore
early lunch
send pt off
nothing spoils my day more than people taking photos of me for some frigging i dunnoe wat
this is not a circus
stressed.

help.
sinking.
only third week of school.

stressed

i am so stressed.
my schdule has been pushed back again and again
redo od
more od
cannot make it
i really feel like i have been in school for weeks when in fact this is just my third week.
gosh.
HELP ME!
i need to get my FP done
i need to get my RP done.
i need to get my perio done!!!

been sick for a bit
flu cough sore throat fever.
slept alot
canceled a pt.
but still went out for the cursory friday night dinner
went to chinatown and had organs frogs and mixed porridge
the fried intestines were really yummy
went to seventh heaven for ice cream
yummy yet disapointing and the wait was way too long for such a small place.
40 mins.
for ice cream mind you.

celebrated my cuzzies 21st birthday
how i have grown
from a lil brat to a older person
met a primary one friend there
can you believe it?
she regconises me.
ok.

life is so much easier to live when you can just streamline
cut the drama
cut the pleasantries
i dunnoe
its so much easier not being friends anymore
its like a relationship gone wrong
without the getting together and the breakups
but maybe with farewells
its good that we both have moved on
i can't wait oe hour for you to turn up for lunch
i can't be waiting everyday for i'll call you soon
i can't be waiting for you to be in the mood to talk before you answer my calls.
all that drama just so we can be friends.
its not worth it anymore.
took me a decade to realise.
we are from a different world.

i'm so old and boring.
so rushed around.
i need some space to breathe
you have all the time in the world
oh how i've aged.
is it for the better or worse?

i miss sydney.

in secondary school i used to leave school early
the weather was always nice
the mood would feel so sleepy
the skies are so nice and blue
people will say to me eh i saw you walking down the stairs at 11am

school lay out

new block
church
old block 1
old block 2
s
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a stadium
i
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school did not feel like school
don't need to study hard to do fine
don't need to do waste time things
the building were pretty spacious
it had this familiar feeling
especially the old blocks
with the weird linking stairs
when i first entered ahs i used to get lost in the old block
and the "haunted linkways" that were always locked
not forgetting the clock tower and its rumors
much as i like the school i never really felt part of it
it felt foreign
i felt like an outsider
never understood the culture
but at the same time it felt warm.
my fave subjects were probably home economics and design and technology
for d n t we had to make toys
i made this horse pull along
and later this joy in creating things lead me to choose dentistry.

stressed.

depressed

the start of school has left me feeling supremely miserable.
not to mention the bad first day.
denture warped or impression distorted.
car vandalised.
horrible day.
burry hole and hide.
evil world.