thoughts

you know once during a period when i was very sad
instead of kind words
i got harsh words it was than that my sadness turned to anger
fierce and bitter and helpless anger
and than i took control of my anger
and i took control of my life once again
i can't remember who that person was
i know you may not have meant your strong words
but they were indeed timely.
thanks. i vaguely remember the words but don't remember the person. haha.

sometimes a person needs a jolt to return to reality
sometimes i need a shock to get some sense into me
and today i did get one from a movie.
it shocked me and traumatized me.
how can people have sex so freely.
and treat it like nothing?
my mind cannot comprehend.
does your conscience bother you?
how do you feel about yourdelf?
wat does love mean to you than?
what are you going to teach your kids?
what about your family members, how do they feel?
aren't you worried about diseases?
when you wake up how do you feel?

pleasure to me
is a good meal with people i love
time spent with ebeegirls and other old good friends cousins
sitting on the couch with JD watching travel and living
sitting on the train with JD watching the scenery
just discovering new sights

the worse thing that can happen to me is probably waking up and feeling purposeless
that would take the meaning out of life.

Made this on sat togerther with blueberry and cheese muffins but din take photo of them.



Creme Brulee made by JD and Me minus the sugar topping because i din take an end stage photo. lol.

you know when i start earning money
i want to cook
cook cook cook.
cooking is a pretty expensive hobby but nonetheless satisfying.

today i expressed interest in sitting on the A380 suite class to my dad.
than my mum said that when i start working in private practice i can afford too!
lol.
my reply that was no such sane person would fork out that type of money to fly.
lol.
than she said buisness class than.
lol.
a business class ticket to sydney on a normal plane is about 5000 if two were to fly it would be 10000.
than she said company pay.
lol.
dentist fly on business?
haha.
than she said offer to do dentistry on the plane.
right.
my mum has interesting ideas.
who would like to do his/her teeth on a plane pls let me know.

my dad offered me a different opinion.
he said many lawyers do not practice law.
why not you don't do dentistry next time (sic) and do something else?
i think he's still not very keen on me doing dentistry despite almost three years in the course.
sigh.
am here i am, working so hard.

my body does not know how to feel tired.
it just goes sick.
like splitting headaches and nausea.
totally horrendous.
good night.

At The Cross by Darlene Zschech, Reuben Morgan

Key: E
Intro:
A – E/G# A | B |


Verse 1:
E/G# A2 B C#m7
Oh Lord You’ve searched me,
E/G# A2 B -
You know my way;
E/G# A2 B C#m7
Even when I fail You,
A2 Bsus B E/G# A2 B C#m7
I know You love me.


Verse 2:
E/G# A2 B C#m7
Your holy presence
E/G# A2 B -
Surrounding me
E/G# A2 B C#m7
In every season,
A2 Bsus B
I know You love me;
A2 Bsus B
I know You love me.


Chorus:
E C#m
At the cross I bow my knee,
E/G# A
Where Your blood was shed for me,
B
There’s no greater love than this.
E C#m
You have overcome the grave,
E/G# A
Your glory fills the highest place,
B
What can separate me now?


Verse 3:
E/G# A2 B C#m7
You go before me,
E/G# A2 B -
You shield my way,
E/G# A2 B C#m7
Your hand upholds me;
A2 Bsus B
I know You love me.


Verse 4:
E/G# A2 B C#m7
And when the earth fades,
E/G# A2 B -
Falls from my eyes,
E/G# A2 B C#m7
And You stand before me,
A2 Bsus B
I know You love me;
A2 Bsus B
I know You love me.


Bridge:
A2 B C#m7
You tore the veil, You made a way
A C#m7 B
When You said that it is done.

i remember my first time in Hillsongs Church.
but thats not the point,
God is every where
and He is here with me today
despite all my failures all my let downs all my baddies and all
He is here with me
even when it feels like the world has turned its back on me
He is here with me
and thats the most comforting thing i'll ever know.

i saboed myself during PBL today and i have the first learning issue of the term.
prob the only one too.
is ciggie smoke or tobaco smoke more harmful to the oral cavity.
if any of you have any answers please let me know.

Need to do:
1. Exchange report
2. Exchange presentation
3. Send in dentures to invest. (yes, i invest dentures no monetary profit though)
4. Bridge competency haven't equilibrated my teeth yet, dunnoe if can take.

happpy

i just did something on facebook.
feel pretty please with myself.
but i have to put things in pespective.
who ask them to have such options.
i think its a big joke.
i wonder if it will get approve.

darling made watermelon steak today
basically you take watermelon
cut it up
put butter and cream sherry
we din't have cream sherry so we used honey umeshu, contrieu, and lychee liquer(which in my opinion is a bit off)
wrap it in aluminium foil and bake it
i din't get to taste the out come cause i had to rush off
and you serve it with salt and pepper.
interesting?

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Grandma bday

celebrated my grandma's 81st birthday today!
as usual the mum's side is very big
to me that is
and considering the size of dad's side.
caught up a fair bit with my cuzzies
they are all so big now.
i think my Grandma is very blessed to have such a family around her
she's one of the most respected people in my life
she brought up ten children
from humble beginings to pretty successful people
but i have never ever heard her complain once about having to cook for one more mouth
when ever i go to her place she always has food no matter what time it is
and yummy food that is.
she's so strong, capable and motherly.
i want to be like her.

went out with my cuzzies.
k box thing at marina is way expensive
ended up at Harry's at esplanade cause we had three kids and could not go elsewhere.
we should hang out more.

random

sometimes things are just so dumb.
its so much easier to just zone out and not have to deal with it.
since i have seen more things i no longer feel like i have the capacity to deal with it nor the time for that matter.
is it wrong that all i want to do is just get out?
i have reached a stage in my life where if i was like this than i would despise myself.
now i just dun feel a sense of belonging or the need to do it.
now so more than ever i feel like i have to escape
my mind wanders around the world and lingers by the river, the beach, under a tree in the park.
such calming moments.
and it stays there.
refusing to accept the heat the torture and monoteny
but i know that despite all i have a Saviour.
the one who plans out my life
the one who charts out a map and
He too will cause my feet to walk down the path that is best.

i'm so glad i have moved on.
in many ways i feel much older
but deep within me i wonder if the jadedness still lingers.
the jadedness from seven years ago?
i doubt so i hope not.
i just can't seem to find the radiance to dazzle and impress me anymore nor the curiousity nor the mental activity.
am i tired?
ok this is such a vague post.
good nite.

updates

have not been feeling well since yesterday.
parents are back from their cruise.
they asked me to go on it for honeymoon. lol.
wanna tour europe anyone?
went to taste by bro's wedding dinner food.
din eat much cause i was so nauseated by the winding sentosa roads that by the time we got there i felt incredibly sick.
it went on and on and on. like 3 hours.
ok i spent most of my time kissing the white throne.
i went to school late today!!!
JD thought it would be good if i took a rest.
so slept in abit.
school is really so busy.
i just have too much work and too many datelines.

Things i need to do:
1 Set up teeth
2 Tidy up my RP cast.
3 Mount my RP casts.
4 Sent in my RP casts for record blocks.
5 Send in my RP casts for co-cr frame
6 Do my ortho casts up
7 cut my posterior bridge preps

This is ripped off JD's blog cause i'm too lazy to type it out. i'll just put it into days.

Places visited:
Day 1
- Surry Hills (where we stayed at. it also where Kylie Kwong's Restaurant is but for some reason we missed it. there are lots of gay bars there. shops wise there are lots of small shops that sell pretty up market stuff from designer paper to house ware to clothes. and there's also a nice supermart, Daffy Brothers that sells absolutely heavenly wagyu beef. its a cool, fashionable and hip place with lots of restaurants and cafes)
- we basically walked around the area and had Oporto's for dinner. you must try it. the chicken with chilli sauce is so yummy. juicy tender and cooked to perfection with a nice hot sauce.
- walked around the chinatown area
- had baskin robbins - we settled on the super big sundae with like three scoops
- Darlinghurst (lots of indian food)

Day 2
- Sydney Aquarium (watched feeding time at the great barrier reef, had cute seals and interesting big swimming creature.)
- Botanic Gardens (beautiful, but no roses)
- Opera House (much more beautiful in real life)
- Sydney CBD (like Singapore, but with better weather and friendlier people)
- had my first Krispy Kreme at Queen Victoria Building
- we walked like crazy

Day 3
- took the ferry to Manly Beach (surfers don't feel the cold)
- had Jap noodles there at this authentic japanese run cafe but was normal.
- went to Chatswood to visit my aunt and had dinner at her place
- Artarmon (many pretty houses)

Day 4
- Paddy's Market (reminded me of Bangkok. or any pasar malam)
- star city casino
- ultimo
- Fish Market (great seafood)
- xic lo vietnamese food
- Chinatown (like any other Chinatown, but better food)

Day 5
wanted to go to Gosford but there was a crazy jam due to the APEC long weekend. in the end we toured the north shore beaches
eg. Dee Why and Palm Beach
- Dee Why (apparently the original aussie surfer town, gorgeous beachfront cafes)
- Palm Beach (gorgeous beachfront housing)
- had lunch at a super nice German burger place at Dee Why beach the burgers are HUGE and they have amazing calamari
- saw protesters at Hyde Pake (falungong type)
- at night my cousin who happened to be there on holiday too joined us for dinner at my aunt's place

Day 6
- Strathfield (DFO! great shopping!)
- lots of Koreans and chinese and asians in general around the area.

Day 7
-Hillsongs church (city)
- The Rocks (market was great fun, and we saw PM Lee and his entourage drive pass!)
- Bondi Beach (beautiful and totally not overrated. at least while we were there, mainly because it was the Festival of Winds, aka Aussie kite festival! during APEC, no less)
- bondi jn also has this crazily large shopping centre it is way cool

Day 8
- Sydney Dental Hospital

Day 9
- Westmead (dental hospital was rather antiquated)
- Grandville (there is this amazing sweet shop place that sells the best arabian sweets, its super posh in a sorta dangerous estate)
- Parramatta (nice mix of the old and the new, and the ferry back to Sydney was fantastic, more like beyond imaginable)
- Darling Harbour (oh so pretty at night, met up with my Dad's friends son. its funny how i go half way around the world to meet him and never saw him in Spore before. but oh well, Archipalego brewery yeah?)
- Sydney Harbour (ferries are fun to take)
- Harbour Bridge (uhh, like the golden gate bridge, but green)

Day 10, 11
- spent in the dental hospital
- are at Pasture's viestnamese food
- late night shopping at Chatswood also had a glimsp of their Spring festival. was way cool
- Jing Hao joined us on thursday

Day 12
- University of Sydney (the quadrangle is totally classic)
- FANTASTIC thai food - SPICE I AM (its a must go)

Day 13
finally went to Gosford
- Gosford (feels more australian than sydney does)
- The Entrance (pelican bay! lots of fishermen, a carousel, children's trains, cotton candy! there's this ice cream shop - Scoops its a must try)
- Bateau Bay (incredible scenery, and many many paragliders flying around overhead)
- had dinner at a hong kong restaurant in Chatswood superb food, the pork ribs melts in your mouth.

Day 14
- Krispy Kremes for brekkie 2 + coffee and a doughnut sundae
- boost juice (makes me sick)
- bought lots of lamb, salami and beef
- packed my way over stuffed bag it was approx 30kg.
- bye bye Sydney
-can't wait to go there again. LOL.

Enjoyed the excellent weather, breathed lots of fresh air, met loads of people, cooked lots of food (Wagyu wagyu wagyu), ate more food (Oporto's, Spice I am!), saw lots of things (paragliders!), and basically had a brilliant time!